I don’t consider myself shy but at the same time I am not a very public person either. Cocaine Zombies is a book of fiction. Sam, the main character, is not me. Yet, we do share certain similarities. In writing fiction a part of the author’s thinking is transferred to all of his characters. This leaves a person feeling a bit exposed.
This is particularity true in this book. Sam is a three dimensional character. He must explore his sexual feelings. At times he is afraid but at other times he is able to overcome his fears. He is both heroic and deeply flawed.
There are other characters in the book who are also flawed. Characters whose actions range from indifferent to evil. Yet, a person or even an ancient voodoo deity is not pure good or pure evil. For a character to seem real we must acknowledge the complexity of that person. No person is pure good or evil. In all people there are shades of gray.
Parts of the book are silly and funny. Yet, other parts are upsetting and disturbing. Even fiction must reflects reality.
When the book is available for sale I have little doubt I will receive both praise and derision. I am fully prepared for both. After all I have been married for fifteen years. I understand that a negative comment or review can be as valuable as a positive one.Yet, it does leave a person vulnerable.
It is a bit like dating in high school. In high school you still cared what others thought about you. Your spirit had not yet been crushed. As a result you lacked the freedom of having been there before. Thus, rejection was a more difficult obstacle. You lacked the knowledge that comes with age. You honestly believed that if you were rejected you might not recover.
Yet at the same time I do want to know what other people think. As such I’m looking forward to hearing from people. So when the book comes out feel free to share your thoughts. This is true even if you don’t like some or all of the book. Although, if I had to guess, I think you will like it.